06 November 2009

"The merit of an action lies in finishing it to the end" - Ghengis Khan

What a bust, huh? My blog started out as a great idea and then fizzled as week after week went by with no post, no ramblings, no random thoughts on life out here in Iraq. So first, I apologize that I sucked you all in and then left you hanging high and dry. I feel pretty lame... and Ghengis's words of wisdom aren't helping me feel any better!

I'm writing this note from one of my last stops in Iraq; Baghdad, in a computer lab on Camp Slayer. Two months ago it seemed that this deployment would never end, but the end has FINALLY come and I'm on my way home.

I have much to thankful for, most importantly that I am slipping away back to U.S. soil without any injury, illness, or damage to my body. I had mentioned indirect fire attacks in an early post; those continued throughout my time in Balad, but to my knowledge none found their targets so no U.S. personnel were injured or killed by them in the past six months. There was a helo crash in Balad about a month ago that injured several and killed one: Specialist Michael S. Cote was his name, originally from Louisianna. It's hard to fathom how it must feel to find out that you've lost a loved one serving in Iraq or Afghanistan. It hurts to think about it. I had members of my team here in Baghdad and also in Tikrit, and I'm happy to say that all of them are returning home safely.

When I hop onto the internet back in the United States, it's going to feel like jumping from 14.4 dial-up circa 1994 back to the present. I constantly tried to remind myself how nice it was that we at least had SOME access to the internet for email, etc., but I grew increasingly frustrated with it throughout the deployment. I have taken for granted the luxury of high-speed internet! I can't remember if I mentioned it back in another blog, but one day when I clicked on a publication that I needed for a qualification I was working on, the computer began to download it and said it would take something like 6 days, 18 hours to download. I made do without it! Here in Baghdad it is only slightly better: I tried to download a word document from Jennifer that had some pictures embedded in it. The computer said it would take 28 minutes to download. Because of those frustrations, my one hour per day on the internet was usually barely enough just to log in, check a few emails, and send a few back. And I did that "in the background" while I talked with my beautiful wife on Skype. What a blessing that was! Seeing your loved ones' faces and talking with them went a long way toward getting me through this deployment.

I feel like I WAS able to see it through to the end. Admittedly, I was in a slightly bitter stage for a couple of weeks about a month ago, the stage where I was just so tired of life in Iraq and ready to go home, like NOW. But that stage quickly gave way to the "happy go lucky" stage when you realize that you are so close to leaving that nothing can bring you down (with the exception of an extension, which thankfully didn't happen to me). But we saw our work through to the end; my team did a lot of great work contributing to getting bad guys off the streets. One of my personal goals was to qualify as an Enlisted Expeditionary Warfare Specialist which I was able to do. It took the majority of my free time for a couple of months, but in the end it was worth it. To many people it may be just another badge for the chest or more of the alphabet added to your Navy title [now I'm CTIC(EXW/NAC/AW) Baldwin], but to me it means that I'm still relevant and contributing to this expanding part of the U.S. Navy mission, the one that is far away from the blue waters of the oceans.

Although I never verbalized it, I brought several books and hoped to end the deployment with more books read than movies watched. I'm proud to say that I watched three movies in six months, but managed to read about 7 or 8 books! Not to say that that was the only "watching" that I did; I watched a season of the TV show "Dexter" and all three seasons of the sitcom "It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia". As much as I like TV and movies, when I'm on deployment I find it remarkably easy to live without them.

The next leg of my journey should begin in a few hours. If everything goes as planned I'll be out of Iraq before the new day comes around and my next post just might be from Qatar.

I'm REALLY looking forward to the luxury of communications that we have in the U.S. and catching up with all of you... thank you for all your thoughts and prayers during this deployment!

Marc

18 July 2009

"Hip-hop is definitely not what it used to be, which was creative, original music" - Missy Elliot

First of all, I want to say thanks to those of you who sent words of encouragement based on my last “uninspired” blog, especially you Uncle Ken. Every time you write (even if it takes nine times to get it posted!) it is a great encouragement to me. Thank you very much.

Just about the time I wrote the blog some things changed! Hmmm. I had been working noon to midnight, but for various reasons my hours changed from 7am to 7pm. Nothing TOO major, but a few adjustments to be made…

Part of my “groundhog day” routine was swimming 3 to 4 times per week. I would head to the pool at 10am, swim for about 45 minutes, and still have time to shower up and make it to work by noon. Now that my work starts at 7am, that would mean heading to the pool at 5am, which means a 4:45am wake up. I gotta say I’m not really diggin’ that. In fact, I haven’t done it yet!

I could just go to bed earlier, like 9 or 10pm so that I get my 7-8 hours of sleep, right? Wrong. How’s that saying go? “You don’t know what you got…”

One of the nice things about living here on this part of the base with a bunch of “snake eaters” (SF guys) is that they like to shoot weapons a lot, so we have a really nice range. I’ve enjoyed it myself about once a week since I’ve been here. The range is only about 200 yards away from where I live (remember my CHU?). The military was nice enough to give me an M9 pistol and an M4 rifle to use while I’m here, and I can shoot up all the ammo that I want. Sweet! Here’s the thing: the range is open every day from… you guessed it… noon to midnight. So I was never actually trying to sleep when the range was open. The fact is, because of the heat, most people shoot late in the evening, between about 9pm and midnight.

That was a long story just to say that if I lay my head down to try to sleep at 9pm, I have to figure out how to actually get to sleep with gun battles (so it seems) raging 200 yards away. Not the best of sleeping conditions. Maybe I’ll get used to it, since once upon a time I managed to learn to sleep two decks below the catapults on an aircraft carrier!

By the way, I do enjoy going to the range, and I like keeping my skills up. I don’t pretend to be a sharpshooter, but I’m no slouch either. Something about staying proficient using weapons makes it feel a bit more like a military deployment. I always say, though, if the intel guy (me) is using his weapon in an actual combat situation, something has gone horribly wrong! Especially considering that I’m surrounded by SF guys. But, I don’t want to be the idiot who dies because he doesn’t know how to load a magazine in his weapon. I always hate that scene in “Saving Private Ryan” where the linguist cowards out. Why did it have to be the linguist?? In a combat situation (I hope I’ll never have to be in) I would like to be an asset to the team, not baggage.

My weight room adventures are coming along. I’m not breaking any weight lifting world records, but I feel good. There are some guys that push up a lot of weight in there; very serious lifters. I’m still content to do a bit here and there just to stay in shape and improve my endurance a little bit. I used to wear my Ipod there all the time, and then I noticed that everyone else did, too. Do you know how hard it is to socialize when everyone has headphones on? So I burned a few CDs of music that I like and “donated” them to the gym. So now I walk in, put in my CDs, and listen to it on the sound system, sans headphones. Nobody complains… they all have their headphones on!

I just finished a book called “Honeymoon With My Brother”. It was really enjoyable. It’s a true story, written by a guy who was dumped at the altar by his bride-to-be. As a result, he goes on his non-refundable honeymoon with his brother, they both get the bug for traveling, quit their jobs, and travel the entire world over a two-year period! Lots of introspection about relationships, and serious observations about other cultures, countries, and people from around the world. It’s worth the read. Next on tap: “All About the Beat: Why Hip-Hop Can’t Save Black America”. Probably seems off the wall, but being a 39-year-old small town Iowa Caucasian, I’ve always loved hip-hop and I’m always interested in seeing how it affects our culture. I have to say that Hip-Hop MUSIC started going down hill right around 1992 (notice the quote title for this blog); I love the late 80’s stuff, but that’s another topic for another day I think.

Marc

07 July 2009

"A deadline is negative inspiration. Still, it's better than no inspiration at all" - Rita Mae Brown

Uninspired.

I guess I've realized that there is a direct correlation between the number of opinions you have in life and the amount of news or information that you're exposed to on a daily basis.

July in Iraq is extremely dry. So am I.

I don't watch TV here. My internet connectivity is limited to the 30-45 minutes I spend talking with Jennifer on Skype each day, so I'm not scooting around the web reading the latest news. Stimuli is lacking. Not even a stupid billboard to make me laugh - just cement T-walls.

Routine can be a good thing because it helps the days click by. But the danger is that you end up feeling like Bill Murray in "Groundhog Day" - no surprises, everything predictable, every day feels the same... and little inspiration.

I wish that I could say that I've been so busy fighting a war that I haven't had time to blog. That would be a lie. I've had good intentions of writing something for the last three weeks, but haven't quite found the kick in the pants to get it done. Today was no different, so I just decided to write about exactly what has kept me from writing.

I can't imagine writing a best-selling book and then signing a big book deal with a publisher for two or three more books. How terrifying! What if you only have one good book in you? What do you do if you are CONTRACTED to write and then you sit at your computer and have more of an inclination to play hearts or freecell than to write??

Lame, I know. You're probably reading this for some news from the front. Hmmm, let me see what I can muster up:

- Our chow hall is way too hot. It's a good weightloss plan: sweat while you eat!

- Despite the 30 June deadline, nothing really has changed for me and my job here.

- We had a nasty dust storm for about 4 or 5 days. I heard (have no idea about the source) that it was one of the worst Iraq has seen in a long time. For us it just meant that stuff stopped moving; no flights = no mail, no fruit, no vegetables, etc.

- I ran a 6K race on the 4th of July in 30 minutes. Why a 6K? It's the distance of the normal run route along the flight line. Also, someone figured out that it's the 6th year of OIF (Operation Iraqi Freedom). Too bad that Independence Day wasn't on the 6th this year! I did get a tshirt out of the deal, which wasn't really a deal, since I had to pay $10 for it. They could have stayed with the theme and only charged me $6.

Yeah, that's about all I've got. I hope that your life is more exciting than mine at the moment. I have everything I need here, but if you'd like to send me something, I'll take a big box of inspiration. I need it.

12 June 2009

"Leisure time is that five or six hours when you sleep at night" - George Allen

I mentioned in my previous blog that I’m working noon to midnight. There are a few exceptions, but pretty much everybody on a military deployment like this works at least a 12-hour day. For many, it’s more like 14 or 15. I work a shift; the job I do is a 24-hour a day job, so I head out the door when the other shift comes in. All that to say that I rarely have to work beyond my 12 hours because someone else is there to take over.

That being said, writing about my free time shouldn’t take too much time, right?

Many of the people that I work with here are Special Forces (SF) guys, so this place has an ingrained culture of fitness. As a result, people spend a lot of time at the gym, and so do I. It’s a good stress reliever, and hey, I’m at the age now where I’m fighting the battle of the bulge. You can imagine that these SF guys are some monsters in the gym, so I consider myself the comedic entertainment. I haven’t seriously lifted weights for years, but I’m starting here, trying to get stronger. The other day I decided to bench press. Although I can run and bike, I’ve never had a strong upper body. You can see where this is going right? It’s like a scene from a Mr. Bean movie or something! For those of you that don’t know, the bar itself is 45 pounds. Not wanting to hurt myself and having no idea where to start, I put about 20 more pounds on, 10 on each side. Those are LITTLE weights. When it was all said and done, I was able to lift about 105 pounds about six times! I wish I had a picture, because it was comical: me struggling, the bar, and three LITTLE weights on each side. I bet I was the subject of some stories the next day. Oh well, you’ve got to start somewhere, right? I’ve decided to abandon all pride and just go for it. By the way, the next night I saw my Lieutenant (three inches shorter and about the same weight) benching around 260. Hmmmm…

Another exercise outlet for me is the pool. I’m very happy to be able to swim laps over here. I have to get in our team vehicle and drive over to the main side of base, but it’s worth it. The pool is an Olympic-sized outdoor pool that evidently was a training pool for the Iraqis before we got here. It’s really nice. I try to make it over there three times a week in the morning. I wouldn’t want to go in the afternoon anyway, it would be too hot. It’s hot enough when I’m there at 10:30am. Since it’s a military pool in a forward-deployed area, there are several signs posted that females must wear a one-piece suit, and any violations will result in suspension of pool privileges. Every time I go there several of the loungers are occupied by girls in their bikinis working on their tans. For some reason, I never see anyone enforcing the “one-piece” suit rule.

At the end of my day I spend time in the computer/phone lab. There is usually a line, but phones or computers are available usually within 15 minutes or so. The line is a result of a lack of wireless internet around here. There’s also no internet available in the CHUs, so the computer lab is the one place to get connected. It’s nice to have since I’m able to call Jennifer either on the phone or better yet, on Skype, every single night (afternoon for her). I don’t know how we survived those submarine days with NO contact for a couple months. At home Jennifer and I spend half our lives on the computer, or so it seems, but with the internet only available at the lab, that’s not the case here.

I’ve got a pile of books lined up to read and I’m starting to wonder if I’ll get through them. By the time I’m crawling into bed, it’s because I’m tired and ready to sleep, and when I get up, it’s because I have to be somewhere. I think a little reading before bed would do me some good, because then maybe I’ll dream about that instead of the crazy work-related dreams that I usually have!

There’s really not much else to tell in the “free time” department. Most of my social time comes from the fellow Chief Petty Officers around here. They are a good bunch of people and easy to talk to so a 20-minute meal time often becomes an hour. Hey, nobody is in a hurry to get back to work, right?

Marc

05 June 2009

"May the forces of evil become confused on the way to your house." - George Carlin

My House

I live in a “CHU” and as you can guess that’s just another military acronym. Oddly enough, I haven’t found anyone that knows what the “C” stands for, although they are sure that the “HU” stands for Housing Unit. Cubicle maybe?? This room that I’ll call home for the next five months isn’t too bad. It’s designed to house two people, but I’m senior enough that I’ll have it all to myself.

It’s roughly 18 feet long and seven feet wide: 125 square feet of my own space… far better than the 12 or 14 square feet that I could call my own on the submarine! I’ve only seen two other rooms other than my own, and it appears the “equipment” in the room varies. It depends on what the last guy left for you, or sold to you, or what you may have managed to get from someone else when they left to go home. I’m lucky enough to have a small refrigerator, as I’ve discovered only a few people have. I have two twin beds, two lockers (think high school size lockers), two wood three-drawer cabinets, and two four-drawer plastic cabinet things (like the ones you buy in Walmart in the storage aisle). The coup de gras is the leather desk chair. I have no idea how it got here or where it came from, because I have no desk. But hey, it’s a comfy chair!

I have my laptop that I’m typing on now, although no internet connection here in my room. I’ll explain more about that at a later time but for now I’ll stay focused on my accommodations. I paid the last guy $50 for a third, fourth, or fifth generation 15” TV hooked up to a DVD player. There is a cable coming in from the outside that is hooked to the TV, but I think it’s a tease; there’s nothing coming through that cable. So basically the TV is just for watching DVD movies.

The floor is a lovely (haha) linoleum that will be a challenge to keep clean. It’s impossible to keep the dust and dirt out (this place is nothing but sand, dust, and gravel – more on that later, too). I have one small throw rug that was already here, and I bought another one (they have them at the military PX) to help cover the floor. A lamp would be nice, but I have to make due with two fluorescent lights on the ceiling. Fluorescent light is nice for the garage, not for the bedroom or the living room (in my case it’s all the same).

I have a window, although I keep the rolontons (sp?) closed all the time. It’s 110 during the day so I’m not anxious for any sun to make its way in here, especially since it starts to come up at about 0445. I’m working noon to midnight so I prefer to stay asleep a little longer than that!

That’s about it I think… I have electricity, 220 voltage, but the $50 I paid also include a few converters so that I can plug in my laptop, charge my iPod, and plug in the alarm clock that came with the $50, too. I almost forgot the most important thing, which of course is the air conditioner. It never shuts off. Ever. If I lived in this climate without AC (as most Iraqis do), quite frankly, I wouldn’t do a damn thing during the day. It was running like a champ when I moved in, then they pulled it out of the wall one day to power wash the whole thing. I’m convinced it doesn’t work as well anymore (go figure), but it still does the job.

This “CHU”, like all the others, is a “dry CHU”, which means I have to go outside to go to the shower or the bathroom. It’s not far – 30 seconds away. The showers are okay, like the shower in a nice campground, if that makes any sense at all. I’ve been here for and few weeks and had hot water all but two days. I know, you’re probably thinking, “Why would you take a hot shower when it’s 110 out?” I’m weird like that. No matter how hot it is I can’t stand taking a cold shower! Since writing this part of the blog, I discovered (with amusement) that I never had to shower without hot water; I just happened to be in the stall with the control knobs reversed and I didn’t know it!

Lastly, my “CHU” is surrounded by concrete walls that they call “T walls” because of their shape. EVERYTHING is surrounded by concrete. I guess concrete is the new sandbags. For the first few years of presence here, this base was known throughout Iraq as “Mortaritaville” because of the high frequency of mortar attacks from the bad guys. It still happens occasionally, but only a couple of times a month. And when I say mortar attack, I mean one, two, or three homemade mortars lobbed in an indiscriminate direction toward the base. I don’t mean to minimize it, because it’s still dangerous and people can still get hurt. But it’s rare now. I don’t know when the last time that someone was hurt in an attack here, but I think it’s been quite awhile. There are concrete bunkers scattered around the housing units, but I’ve never had the unfortunate occasion of using one.

So that’s my house in a nutshell (well, a CHU).

Marc

P.S. I took some pics, but I'm having mucho problems trying to upload them to the blog. Any advice from you other bloggers would be much appreciated. It seems to get hung up after I browse to the picture and hit "upload". It doesn't get past "sending request to blogger.com".